Well our new family doctor continues her long line of disappointing and substandard care. She refused to fill out the MAiD1 paper work as ‘it’s not something she wants to do in her practice.’ Well isn’t that nice, I didn’t plan to get metastatic cancer in my life but shit happens. She wanted to know why I didn’t want to do chemo anymore2 and besides, it’s pointless as the cancer is just going to come back anyway. She actually said ‘we don’t know that for sure.’ I am beginning to wonder if she’s delusional. She tried to sell me on palliative care and she referred me. She told me that she thought my request was out of character3 and that I was strong and could do this. I told her given my medical history I had no intention of doing anymore. The cellulitis did me in. Going to the hospital every day for IV antibiotics was very hard on me. They traumatized me in the ER with the way they treated my port and the amount of time after it took for it to heal.
Those of you who know me, know that I don’t Millennials too much. I might make a few jokes here and there but that’s about it. Since getting cancer, I have noticed two things about this generation: no one will pick up a phone to solve a problem quickly and they are more than willing to prescribe painful treatments and procedures without giving it much thought. I am fairly sure that themselves have not had to endure what they recommend for their patients or seen anyone they love go through this stuff.4
I get that doctors cannot be forced into filling out MAiD paper work. However, I think as time marches on health budgets begin to spiral out of control there will be more emphasis put on MAiD as a way to reduce health dollars spent. Does it make sense for me to continue with a very expensive treatment that I don’t want and which is only hurting my quality of life. I think has the baby boomers age, there is going to be even more pressure placed on doctors and the MAiD program in general. After all, we have a right to an assisted death in Canada.
I can’t say enough good things about the MAiD program itself. The staff I have dealt with have been very kind, empathetic and responsive. They readily share information and make sure you understand how the program works. I am confident that I will get the death I want in their capable hands.
1 Medical Assistance in Dying
2 Let’s see: diarrhea, neuralgia, nausea, vomiting, fatigue, suicidal ideation…
3 As if she would know.
4 I recognize that this is a big assumption on my part. But I do remember The Oncologist™ recommending I get another colonoscopy. I asked him if he’d ever had one and he said no. I told him I would never have another one after screaming through the last 3.